It has been a loooong while.
I guess my hiatus was down to running out of things I wanted to talk about – or could in the public domain of the world wide web.
I have been keeping busy, and I’m pretty sure that will give me plenty of fodder to ramble on about!
My current thing is projects – I occasionally have phases of feeling ‘hyper productive’, where I have an idea about millions of things I want to do, then attempt to do them all in one big go and inevitably burn myself out on the all the ideas.
Take this week, for example.
I’ve decided that I’m bored of the things I’m cooking. I’m stuck in a rut of cooking all the same things because it’s easy and I can do it with my eyes closed. I need to be better at watching what I’m eating, I need to be doing more exercise (I keep falling off that wagon, current excuse is I’ve hurt my back).
This resulted in me deciding to be a bit more Mediterranean in my eating habits. I found a few great recipes online. Sensible start, right?
I did a big shop in the week, and then I blew my entire Saturday in the kitchen, cooking lots of different things. I didn’t sit down last night until after I emptied my dishwasher.
At this point, I’ve pretty much made all the meals I need for the next week and a half (possibly more), if I don’t mind eating the same things over the course of a few days. My fridge and freezer are full of prepared food. Which is kind of an accomplishment, but I also find myself feeling somewhat deflated. This kind of mass production is not going to be sustainable for a lifestyle change here.
My major problem here is I become somewhat obsessive in whatever project I’ve latched on to, at the expense of other things in my life. I am currently feeling somewhat guilty that my current ‘thing’ (cooking different things) took away from other things I could have used 50% of my weekend for (see note above about how I get all the ideas at once):
- Getting into that mobile application development that has been bouncing around in my head for quite a while. App ideas = 3. So far.
- Writing that windows app for my spending spreadsheet, to automate my own records keeping progress.
- Making a start on that book idea that’s squirreling around my brain.
- Teaching myself some of these new fangled (and some older) programming languages that are gaining popularity in the industry.
- Getting back into sketching.
- Really learning how to use my graphics tablet.
- Get back into blogging.
While teaching myself new things is always fun, I have to acknowledge that this also takes away from my more ‘real life’ things that should be taking more of my attention:
- Sorting out my wardrobe – so many old outfits I will never wear again need a new home.
- Spending actual quality time with the bloke and his littles.
- Making that choice between getting an additional book case, or re-homing some of my old much loved books.
- Playing all the games on my ‘to play’ pile.
- Reading all the books on the never shrinking ‘to read’ pile. My ‘to read’ pile seems to work on a one out, one (occasionally two) in process.
At the moment, I am raring to go on all of my project ideas in one go. I’ve even made myself a trello board, with sub-lists that go into more detail on all the little steps (thanks, Agile and Scrum, for giving me this fun way to visualise all the things I want to do. I’ve ended up planning out all of my projects – on my phone – and probably lost a couple of evenings to that).
I know I will end up burning out on all the above if I don’t curb my enthusiasm. All these projects have a way of consuming all my mental energy and time. Which typically results in weeks of me vegetating on my sofa and watching all the things on CrunchyRoll when my brain short circuits. Already this morning, I’m downloading up-to-date code editors for various platforms (I’m in fact writing this as I’m waiting for downloads and installations to complete). I still have things on my ‘to prep and cook’ list for today.
I guess this post is more of a stream on consciousness than anything else. It may also provide some enlightenment on my absence from this platform for such a long time – I got distracted by all the shiny ideas. The only conclusion I can come to is that I need to have a word with myself – focus on one thing at a time, and try to finish the job without burning out on it.